Siblings & YOUR drama

Dear Other Woman,

You’d be happy to know him and I fought today, fought because of the fact that my child wants to see their stepsibling, not the new one, since no one knows about that one. So we fought because of you and me being so different, I want them to be together, to know each other, and it has to become this big production because of you and your drama. You said the other day you would do anything for my husband you love him so much. Then how about stopping your drama, making into everything about you.

But because of you, things have to be done secretly, and because he is so afraid of upsetting you I have alter my life for your dumb ass, if it wasn’t for the kids your dumb ass would have been forgotten by all parties a long time ago. How does that make you feel!! OH wait you know that, hence why you planned the first baby and the second…PATHETIC you and DUMB him!!

A ghost note to my husband

Dear the man I said to death due us part, in sickness and health,

I will always love you, that will never change. And I never wanted you out of my life, but you know all of this, you always have. One thing I envy you on is that you know that you are loved, true, pure unconditional love. For that is the only thing I envy you for. Everything else, I pity, I pity that you can take love like that for granted, take hearts and break them, take lives and easily toss them to the side.

I want nothing more then to make things work, I always have. In no means am I perfect, but there has never been any wrong that I have done that deserves what you have done to me. Everything I have ever asked for from you, you have given to [insert her name here]. Our life is not a game as it so easily is referred to. I sit here with you, looking at you with hate and love at the same time. And I am so confused, confused and in pain. I want to be with you, no one understands me like you do, but you can not figure out what you want in life. And I don’t want to be someone in your life that you don’t know how you want to handle anymore. I want to be the person you can’t live without, can’t stop loving, want to kiss, want to hold, want to embrace. What to protect, love and cherish. I want to be the one you wake up missing and go to sleep thinking about. I want to be the one you don’t want to hurt.

I want someone who would protect me from all evil in the world, including her. I know she will be in your life forever, but that doesn’t mean she needs to be IN YOUR LIFE like you let her. I will not share you anymore, I will not fight for you anymore, I will not fight for us anymore.

You say you are in limbo, that you can not work on us while states away. But are you even working on yourself, are you even trying to fix what you broke? The story is see is you are filled with excuses, excuses to make a choice, to deal with the pain you have caused us both. Miles are not an excuse to what you could be doing. You could begin with the truth. You could begin with being honest with yourself.

So after Christmas I will shut the door to my heart. You are no longer allowed there, because it can not break or be any more humiliated then it already is.

I am sorry, I wanted nothing more for this not to happen.

The Holidays

Dear Other Woman,

They say the holidays are the toughest, boy isn't that the truth.  Was just thinking about asking you what you planned on getting my husband for Christmas, I mean I don't want us to get the same things for him.

So as I sit her confused more then ever, and weighing packing my bags and taking my kid somewhere no one could ever find us to escape the drama and pain you insist on inflicting, I wonder what I am going to do.  The love of my life, my best friend, gave the one gift I anted to you, life......and since he can't seperate ties from you, and can't from me....I think it is only fitting to let go and take control of my own life.  But he makes it so hard, he won't let me go, he does so many things to show he wants me to be with him, but yet he does things that prove he will never change.  And your stupid whore self went and got knocked up.. You are more stupis then I could ever be. 

I hate you, I hate you both....the one person I trusted, loved, and will always love, I hate you.  I hate hat you have and are doing to me and our fmily.  And I hate your stupid whore who will not leave me alone.  You are pathetic that you continue to mock me, try and friend my friends....LEAVE me the FUCK alone!!  If I ever end up dead, cyber world, tell the  policy that whore must have had something to do with it.

I need to live my life for me and my child....you and your stupid self need to get a life!

Long Weekend

Dear Other Woman-

What a long week and weekend....so we got to play family since he was up here, and I will say I miss that.  But I am sooo angry at you two right now.  When he left our kid was bawling.....sobing unlike they have ever done before.  So F you both for causing that pain.  Not to mention later in the car our child stating that they didn't know why but they were so angry they felt like they could scream.  That is horrible....horrible that a little child is confused as to why they are so angry right now.  

Another Day....another disapointment

Dear Other Woman,

So this week my husband is home.  It is a special week for our child so he is here to spend some family time, since we have yet to tell our kid we are getting a divorce.  I asked him about your two....he said there is nothing...that he doesn't want to be with anyone right now.  That he knows what he did was a mistake.  Hear that...your a mistake!  HA!  Anywho....so he hides the car in the garage stating he needs to give it an oil change...yeah like I beleive that...he didn't tell you he was coming and he doesn't want you to know he is here.  Funny and sad at the same time right...oh and mean.. I mean he doesn't want to admidt anything in life.  Where he is...how he feels...nice, real mature.  No wonder you to gravitate to each other..

ON another note I will tell you these few days have been hard.  We have been doing family things like nothing ever happened...it is very hard for me.  There are times I look at him and want nothing more then to reach out and touch him, love him, kiss him, and then I look at him and I see you and all the other woman that he is fucking and I hate him....am utterly discusted....this is sooooo hard.  The man I love, will always love, and yet right now hate, hate for the pain he has caused.  He said something funny, I was telling him how I wished we had bought a different house, the one I wanted, because it would have ben easier for me to afford, and was smaller etc. and he said he didn't want our kid growing up in that area....and I am thinking....you care about how your kid grows up...really....did you just say that.....if you cared so much you wouldn't have done what you did.  UGH!!Anyhow, you, well you still discust me...I know about your antics....really....loser....creating online accounts for him posting you two all over them saing he is in a relationship with you...get a life...have some resect...we are still MARRIED!!!  And I think if he had it his way w'd stay married.....I mean...really....you need to do a life check....cause you need to revaluate your shit!

So for the next 4 days of being in the same bed, no worries I will not think of you ONCE!

Ain't it Sad

Dear Other Woman,

So much hate and anger to you, right now I pray that will cease, as hate is an ugly thing to bottle up.  You know what I hate most of you.....how your poison as seeped it's way into my husbands heart.  Your sick sick poison....is slowy killing him.  He used to be filled with light, hope, love, adventure, excitement, now he is nothing. Has nothing and is nothing.  You beat him down...you suck him dry.  I only pray he gets his shit together for our kid.  I still love him you will never take that from me, and he still loves me...he still looks to me to comfert him, to be there for him.  You will never have that....you are nothing more to him other then a good fuck.....but I can't be there for him like I was.....you destroyed that....I can't go back...not this time.....but I find comfert in the fact, he looks to me to tend to his wounds.....

So My Life Is A Lie

Dear Other Woman,

So I found out tonight that my life is a lie, but guess what so is yours!  So I found out all the lies he's been telling you.  Making you think Iwe weren't together this past yer.  Making you think police were being called etc b/c him and I fight.  That one is almost laughable.  So everything he told you all lies...everything he told me about you....all lies.  So guess the jokes on both of us huh?

Well I am so upset right now...upset be cause you two have scared my child, they will never know what it's like to grow up with a whole borhter or sister, or know what it is like to have their daddy around.  You two fucked up their life and I will NEVER forgive either of you.

So even though I am ducking out of this relationship....quietily and soundly...I leave you with the fact that he is not your soul mate, he is not in love with you...but instead as he put it...has lied for so long to you he just never knew how to get out of it, or stop being who he became with you.

All I ask is for all the kids sake, maybe you can convience him to seek help..after all..you think he is just with you...when he's not only been with us both...but posting single ads down south where he is...so you must not be that important BITCH!!

So I salute still a BIG FUCK YOU AND FUCK OFF!!!

WHORE!

DEAR BITCH!

FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, and oh yeah FUCK YOU!!!!

To you this has always been a game!!  Well I throw in the towel.  YOU CAN HAVE HIM YOU FUCKING BITCH!!!  You enjoy fucking with people's lives, with children's lives.  YOU ARE a sick sick human.  I feel HORRIBLE for YOUR OTHER children.  What a POOR example of a WOMAN you are.  YOU are a HORRIBLE EXMPLE of a mother.  a mother protects their children for EVIL!!  But it must be hard to do because you ARE EVIL!  And to think I felt sorry for you, to think I prayed for you.  YOU are and EMBARESSMENT to your family.  YOU are a disgusting person.  A MEAN EVIL UGLY HATE FILLED person.  

YOU have FUCKED with MY CHILD so I am DONE!!!  GAME OVER BITCH!!!  I am done.  I hope you are happy that you broke up a FAMILY, that you are a HOMEWREAKER. that YOU have RUINED MANY LIVES because you are a SLUT who can't LET GO of a married man.  

YOU STUPID FUCKING SLUT BITCH WHORE!!!!

Love,

The FAT BITCH you have ALWAYS been jealous of!!!!

FUCK YOU!

How Do You Let Go?

So I always told people that I was with my husband not for our children...but for my love.  The love I have for him.  It's a strong bond...sealed by God.  And I always thought protected by GOD.  So how does one piece of mail destroy everything I believed in.  Everything I held so dear to my heart.  It was yesturday that I found out my husbands 2nd secret.  You see the first one was the birth of his child with that woman....you know the other woman.  The one who decided it was her life mission to torment me.  Well about 9 months ago he created a second secret with her.  And she kept that secret.  And like most things in life.....it takes awhile to learn our lesson.  So as we lived our lives better then we have in many....in fact since the other woman came into our.....this secret began to brew.  Horrible...you know...we finally get to this perfect place......filled with love...and for the first time in 3 years I was at peace.  You can see the decrease in blogs.  I learned to ignore her idle  threats......and her WT ways....so how cruel is that that to end this perfect life is the coming of this 2nd secret.  And this secret is not one I could ever explain to our kid. 

I mean, imagine sitting them down in 10 years telling them.....yes kids daddy and I seperated and he had a kid with that WT lady......and we decided to make it work. and let our love bloom, and live as a family......but then he "whoops did it again" and I forgave him and we are still going strong.

NO!  I can't, I can't do that to them. What does that teach them....that I am worth NOTHING...that woman and the concept of marriage are worth NOTHING.  NO!  for this I will push my love aside..my feelings...my seal and commitment, under God....and I say NO, my child comes first.  Because I hate to admidt it, but if that "secret" wasn't born....but the act still happened...I would still accept him back, with strickter then ever rules.  But this time I can't.  

And I am crushed....I have never felt such dispare, such feeling of hoplessness!  If it wasnt for our child, I would not be able to get up in the morning.  I have never felt such anger, hatrid, embaressment, failure.

Explain to me how I pick myself up from this.  Someone...REALLY...You all read my FUCKING life....you never leave a comment...so go ahead I dare you to tell me life will get better, or God puts us through crap fr a reason, come on I challenge you to make sense of all this horrible crap.  YES i know it could BE WORSE!!  so don't bother with that shit...because you HAVE NO idea.....so try me!~

4:20

Today...all hope and will was lost.

Today will change the rest of our lives

And this is why I can't stand you!!

Dear Other Woman-

Who are you...no really who are you?  

Let's fill in the blanks today, (warning to reader, I am pissed right now)

You are a _______ woman.

Let's make a list

-Sad

-Angry

-Evil

-Lonely

-Horrible

-Pathetic

-Hateful

-Wicked

-Discusting

And really, I don't see nice words in that list at all.  Interesting...I bet your children and family would be so proud.

Well all I have to say is HOW DARE YOU!!!

How dare you invade my life, how dare you speak to me like that.  When I have do nothing...NOTHING and you have done everything...EVERYTHING.  Who slept with my husband......YOU.  And yet you hold all these nasty thoughts in your head about me?????WTF did I do wrong???  How could you treat people so horrible when you are the cause.  You are a little evil disease that needs to be out of my life.

Sometimes I think I am going to crack, but I won't, I won't let you get to me.  I will keep my cool in front of you, I will continue to show my nice self.  I will walk away from your evil words and tone and EVIL self.  I will walk away, and I will vent on these keyboards and no more.

How I pity you, how I pray for your soul, and your children.  I only hope you don't show them this EVIL you.

You ARE a horrible person, and iy is sooooo sad how you CHOOSE to live your life.  

So ask yourself this...is this life the life you really want?  So why are you choosing to live it like this.  MOVE THE FUCK ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GET OVER YOURSELF!!!  NO ONE CARES!!

Peace and Quiet

Dear Other Woman,

How nice it has been being so far from you.  So quet the past few months, though omething inside me is fearing that you are up to something.

I was thinking about you the other day.  And how no matter what happens you end up sneaking into my thoughts.  It amazes me how much damage you have done to my life, my husbands life, and all the children involved.

In fact, I play in my mind the day you child comes to me to find out the truth about this all.  And how I will react.  I lov that kid, as if they were my own.  It hurts me that you get to have them in your life everyday and you take it for granted.  You hear on the news about moms giving up their kids, their custody, and I only wish we were that lucky.  You are so bitter and so mean and you let that pour out unto you kids.  I wish I could scoop that baby up and protect them from their own mother.  How much hate and rage you must have to not put your own childs well being before your own.  So sad

And then I was also thinking how nic it would be if you found Christ, and you moved on.  And I wish we could have a relationship.  Weird to say outloud, but it is true.  But I don't know if I could ever trust you.  So many things you have done, just to hurt us, even just to hurt me.  So much more then my husband knows.  He carries a burden big enough already, I never told him everything you have done.  One day you will have to look back and see how ugly of a life you lead, and you will have to come to understand those terms.

-

Sorry for no posts

Dear other woman,

So I figured I had gotten a break from you, you know because we moved hundreds of miles away.

But does that stop you....no.  You find out we come home for the holidays and you use that chance to call me and go on and on.  So I keep myself composed, because 1. it's funny to listen to you get all white trash when I give you simple one word answers, and 2. because I will NEVER be like you.  So you go on, and on, about how you and my husband are meant to be together, how you love each other about how you are having another child with him, and of course as normal you can't go without getting ugly and telling me that my husband would never hae sex with me because he can't even look at , because he thinks I'm so disgusting.  All I can say is wow, as normal you are filled with class.  Before this call you we e-mailing me and leaving me rude WT comments on the internet, and even text messaging me, and I think it bothers you most because I ignore you.  So because you changed your number I answered the phone.  You go so far as to change you cell number so what...I actually pick it up??  Because before I would just ignore them.....sad...very sad.

Funny thing is when I told MY husband about all this on the call, he laughed...yes he laughed....he laughed at how you just won't stop, it wasn't like a funny ha ha laugh, it was a sad, she is pathetic laugh, and then he held me and loved me, and told me he wouldn't be here, and wouldn't have moved so far way if he didn't want to be with me.  And so we have continued our life without you.  

What saddens me most is the little child the to of you have is the one that is suffering, and my husband, because he can't be even in the saem state with you ad that child without you causing drama.  And he feels that it is best to be far away, it is healthier for the child not to be a part of the drama.

And it saddens me that our child has to be kept from their sibling, this whole thing, all this drama the two of you caused....it is hurting the kids the most.....and what is worst is you are supposed to be a mother.  Mothers protect their kids, love and take care of their kids...you put yours in harms way......